I’m guessing that others who are called to speak (or sing) go through a lot of the same thing that I do in the days and hours leading up to a speaking (or singing)opportunity. It usually starts the day before the event with Satan whispering in my ear something like, “What in the world do you think you are doing? You have NOTHING to say that anyone would want to hear.”
I tell him that I know I have nothing to say that anyone would want or need to hear, but that Jesus does and that I am going as a representative of Jesus.
He then makes me ponder and second guess my message. Is it clear? Does it make sense or is it a lot of gobbledy-gook? Last night on the way home from Day 1 of the North GA Women’s Retreat, he even had me convinced that I was planning the wrong message for tonight. Good grief, he sure does like to mess with my head. Guess he knows it is a wide open space between my ears and there is lots of room to make a mess!!:)
In the hours prior to each speaking opportunity I literally beg the Lord to move me out of the way and let the audience see only Jesus. If there is anything in my message that does not please the Lord, I ask Him to let me forget to say it. He knows what those precious hearts need to hear and I am so dependent on His wisdom and leadership each time I speak.
So, as I prepare to go tonight to serve these sweet ladies, Lord, please flow through me and use me as your mouthpiece so that all they hear and all they see is Jesus!! Nothing but Jesus!! I want Your name and Your renown to be the desire of my heart!! I love you, Lord!
